Seasonal depression!!!

I'm pretty sure that everyone living in the northern hemisphere is touched or has been affected by a tinge of seasonal depression. It's that awkward moment when your car battery dies from the frigidness that nearly broke your fingers upon leaving your house in the morning. Or the time your weather driven tears and/or snot freezes to your face and creates a ghost-like appearance, and about 10 people see it but only one actually says something. Or the mere thought of having to go back to the car to get your cellphone causes a whole breakdown. Or when denim literally freezes, denim and -0 wind chills can be fatal...Seriously seasonal depression is debilitating, sometimes you can't even experience any of the previously mentioned things because your bed becomes your permanent residence. Sleep can become your nourishment, its all you know. Eating becomes either foreign or your only comfort, its a sadness with no limits. Nothing is right, yet you don't know if anything is wrong. On those rare occasions when you're forced to leave your bedroom sanctuary, your choice of clothing is somewhat of a visual cacophony, yet you don't care! Your only hope is that tomorrow sunshine shows up and is generous in that it brings you more serotonin than the day before, and perhaps you have the strength to find some dopamine. I'm not a killjoy, just saying that mental illness is indeed real!!!!

PSA: Stop yielding!!!

Have you ever a great idea, I mean really knew it was a great idea, and for whatever reason you didn't follow through with it!!! I mean after the calamity that caused you to stop, you didn't even revisit the idea. I have a message for you: STOP YIELDING!!! Stop pressing pause, don't let self doubt creep into your creative space! The world outside is negative enough, trust me it doesn't need our help. Ideas are like children, in order to grow, they need to be nurtured. No every idea isn't good, some are quite horrific(at least some of mine are) but the process of development is so worth it! I've stifled my growth more times than I'd ever admit to, however knowing is half the battle so next time an idea, a person, or an unexperienced experience comes along I will not yield!!!!

Acronyms are for testing and texting!!!

Omg, ppl pls stop talking to me in acronyms! Text ttyl, don't ever say that to me! If I'm talking to you on the phone and you need to put me on hold, saying hold on works...not BRB! When you don't know say I don't know not IDK!!! We are so involved with our forms of technology, conversing will soon become obsolete, especially if we're finding shortcuts for a 3 syllable phrase! IJS...

Natural hair Nazi:|

Ok so I'm loving this natural hair journey that many black women are embarking upon, however your transition does not need to be a PSA! However if you choose to announce, display pictures or make suggestions please BE POSITIVE! I love that this has become another way to fellowship with one another, but the negativity behind a curl pattern must stop! Are you more superior that me if you have a type 4 curl and I have type 3? So since I dye my hair and/or flat iron it, does that make me less natural than you? Must you belittle my journey by stating, "you got good hair" or the ever so popular " you must got Indian in you"...all awhile I'm thinking "you got a lot of ignorance in you"

Honestly, I'm glad that we've decided to stop killing our hair with chemicals and such. I just don't like the superiority complex that comes with "your natural choice". I love the websites, all the hair care tips, and the mass marketing, but lets not argue because some sista decided not to do the BC(big chop). Every journey is different and so are hair textures!!!!

Of lies

There's much to be said of lies some are meant to hurt or to protect or to ego boost but the one thing I never understood about lies is that we all tell them from time to time but hate it when we're duped into believing a lie, it's so hard to sift through a lie. How long am I going to sift & sort through the web of lies that has been so gently placed before me? Here is a good generational past down lie, Love conquers all, the truth is love can't conquer a lie especially if your whole relationship or your whole life is built on a lie, talk about shaky foundation! apologies 2 all the confused

The battle of the du(a)eling diagnosis'!!!!

Managing your own illness is quite the challenge, but sprinkle in someone elses' and its a recipe for disaster. It's fall and I'm embarking on my 16th anniversary of seasonal depression(please hold your applause) while she is in the midst of finding her place on the autism spectrum.We live a colorful life, with many shades of gray and blue! She is the up to my down, the on to my off and the center of my universe.

When my eyes open, in the morning, I need quiet, I like to hear my first yawn, feel my first stretch and hear my bones crack. On the other hand, she needs noise. The TV is on blast(Spongebob Squarepants), the clapping, singing, chanting and/or counting are at an unreasonable volume. Our home, becomes some war torn country fighting for equal rights! We've tried to compromise which led to negotiating, but not even NATO can resolve these issues. Morning chaos is our regime, so much so that on the very few peaceful mornings, we don't even know how to get our day started! So the war continues...