Shoulda, coulda, woulda....

Perhaps, I should have stayed away or ignored your calls, or maybe I could have stayed in that state of avoidance that I find so much comfort in. Maybe I should have pretended that you meant nothing and this was a mere fling. Or occupied myself with a substitute you, that way the odds of attachment would be 2:1. Maybe I could rewrite our chapters and choose a new love interest, or how about I just forget. I wonder what the prefix un is for, if I can't unsee and unfeel. I'm a love transient, so why am I so eager to stay. Love is a Rubiks cube, its a chaotic maze of climaxes and plunges its mind boggling as to why anyone would want to take part in that!!!! I'm not allergic to love, I'm just partial to the casualness of commitment free, title less, more texting less talking, uncomplicated, feeling free relationships. Those kind don't stay on your mind, or find a home in your heart or leave your lips wanting just one more kiss! I'll admit they are not as fun, or as fulfilling or even... proper, yet they are more common. Hmmm common- widespread; general; ordinary...now I am allergic to ordinary. So with teary eyes, I submit to this thing called Love!!!